I am: starting today.

It seems everyone around me is having an exceptionally hard time right now. Alignment of the planets, phases of the moon, I don’t know, all of that isn’t really my thing. But something is going on and I just started to feel the weight of it. Today, I began to blaze a new trail on this journey. My emotional health has hit a roadblock, so this is me going around and finding my way. 

I picked up a Practice You journal a while back and for some reason I was waiting until I came in to “a good place” to start it. How ridiculous is that? More recently I also invested in a deck of yoga poses to challenge my practice. As I flipped through them the other night it clicked; each section of my journal correlates to one of the seven chakras, root to crown. I came to the first section of my journal: I am. A slew of adjectives (and maybe a few verbs) came to mind that frankly just are not who I am deep down, at least not the person that I want to be. 

This roadblock of mine is what keeps me from my yoga practice lately, and today I took a new approach. I pulled all of the asanas from the deck that stimulate the root chakra, laid them out in a sequence, cranked some Goo Goo Dolls, and maybe cried a bit as my body began to let go. And while this feels like more of a journal entry than what made it down on paper this morning, I wrote the first couple of sentences in my attempt to find myself again.